are you happy with what you're doing in your life?

its been approximately 200 years since i last posted on my blog :D

i've been working full time, literally full time, because i never feel like doing anything else that feels like work after i clock off from work every weekday

even blogging, which was starting to feel like a job or chore around the time my posts started petering out and eventually stopped

working full time is great, it gives you a lot of money to spend and standardizes your weekdays to a routined schedule, i love that kind of mundane stability, because i know that part of my life is taken care of and i can have fun with reckless abandon with the rest of my time

problem is, i have tons of other unfinished business, things that i should have gotten done and over with before i started this full time work business

i thought i could multitask, despite knowing that i suck at multitasking

i followed my gut, i've been like that for the better part of the last four years now. i've done some seriously drastic things and made crazy, sudden changes in my life so many times that i'm almost a different person every year

and it was fun as heck ^o^ i can make a whole post about how indulging in your gut feeling and making life changing decisions on the fly without worrying about the consequences can both empower you and make life recklessly enjoyable, but i'll leave that for another time, when i'm much more free-er

luckily, that time will come soon

because i'll be quitting my job by the end of the month ^o^

i've gotten tired of my conscience nagging at me to finish all my responsibilities, my unfinished business, so i've decided to make yet another drastic change in my life and reverse to a lower standard of living to finish off what i have to do

i don't know what i'll do after i'm done with those responsibilities, maybe i'll go back to working in the same place again, maybe i'll find a better job

but what i really want to do is to have fun

i can work, i understand the ins and outs of jobs and being a working adult, and its comfortably stable and is absolutely the right thing to do

but i don't want to :( the only reason why i'm forced to is because i freaking need money to survive

so i'm thinking of a way to be able to have fun and get paid to have fun, survive on the thing i love doing the most, without turning it into a job or career, because once it becomes that, the thing i love will become the thing i'd be too lazy to do

just like blogging :O

so yeah ^o^ i gotta sleep~ have been getting very very little sleep nowadays :3 night night kitsune ^^