exactly one year ago today, I made this blog ^o^ happy anniversary, blog! ^w^
I just re-read that blogpost.. and I honestly miss the me back then, a lot has changed, but the funny thing is that I'm still more or less in the same position in my life.. shows how stagnant my life has become, I guess ^^
The sad thing is that today wasn't a really nice day for me, and I'm not feeling the happiest right now :(
Feels kind of like a waste that I didn't 'celebrate' this day.. its like a birthday~ I'm just the kind of guy that loves to celebrate these kinds of things I guess.. not in the sense of having a big ass party and making a huge deal of it, but more like, doing something special ^^ today was sucky though
oh, but because today was sucky, i did indulge myself in some (expensive and) yummy food.. :D so i guess it kinda fell into place ^o^
its amazing how things coincidentally line up in my life :) a lot of things that happened to me feel as though i was at the right place at the right time, or the wrong place at the wrong time.. or the left place at the left time..? @w@
..or maybe its just my (so called) ability to make sense out of every situation. I don't know how to explain, its as if i can twist things to give everything meaning according to what i'm trying to say, in a sense, i can always see what i want to see and hear what i want to hear..
>_< i was going to make this short, but i've gotta get this thing straight. lets see... its like a horoscope, you know? those things are purposefully vague so that they can be applicable to anyone and everyone that reads them.
how is that relevant? because i can make the same story out of two very different occurrences solely because i am able to twist the facts in such a way that they fit into my story.. this is a very dangerous skill to have (not that i'm putting myself in a basket and carrying myself.. ;D) especially by newscasters or journalists, because they will be able to twist everything to achieve their agendas :O
i'd like to think that such a skill involves a lot of creative thinking, critical thinking and being able to link things together and make sense of chaos by seeing subtle but interlocking patterns *o* ok now i'm starting to sound really full of myself.. and that's kinda true, i just ate dinner and i'm freaking full :I fat fat
ok, thats enough ^^ happy anniversary, blog :) I've done enough apologizing today ^^ I can only hope that I will be able to buck up and be more productive after today~ ^o^
Monday, October 10, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
are you happy with what you're doing in your life?
its been approximately 200 years since i last posted on my blog :D
i've been working full time, literally full time, because i never feel like doing anything else that feels like work after i clock off from work every weekday
even blogging, which was starting to feel like a job or chore around the time my posts started petering out and eventually stopped
working full time is great, it gives you a lot of money to spend and standardizes your weekdays to a routined schedule, i love that kind of mundane stability, because i know that part of my life is taken care of and i can have fun with reckless abandon with the rest of my time
problem is, i have tons of other unfinished business, things that i should have gotten done and over with before i started this full time work business
i thought i could multitask, despite knowing that i suck at multitasking
i followed my gut, i've been like that for the better part of the last four years now. i've done some seriously drastic things and made crazy, sudden changes in my life so many times that i'm almost a different person every year
and it was fun as heck ^o^ i can make a whole post about how indulging in your gut feeling and making life changing decisions on the fly without worrying about the consequences can both empower you and make life recklessly enjoyable, but i'll leave that for another time, when i'm much more free-er
luckily, that time will come soon
because i'll be quitting my job by the end of the month ^o^
i've gotten tired of my conscience nagging at me to finish all my responsibilities, my unfinished business, so i've decided to make yet another drastic change in my life and reverse to a lower standard of living to finish off what i have to do
i don't know what i'll do after i'm done with those responsibilities, maybe i'll go back to working in the same place again, maybe i'll find a better job
but what i really want to do is to have fun
i can work, i understand the ins and outs of jobs and being a working adult, and its comfortably stable and is absolutely the right thing to do
but i don't want to :( the only reason why i'm forced to is because i freaking need money to survive
so i'm thinking of a way to be able to have fun and get paid to have fun, survive on the thing i love doing the most, without turning it into a job or career, because once it becomes that, the thing i love will become the thing i'd be too lazy to do
just like blogging :O
so yeah ^o^ i gotta sleep~ have been getting very very little sleep nowadays :3 night night kitsune ^^
i've been working full time, literally full time, because i never feel like doing anything else that feels like work after i clock off from work every weekday
even blogging, which was starting to feel like a job or chore around the time my posts started petering out and eventually stopped
working full time is great, it gives you a lot of money to spend and standardizes your weekdays to a routined schedule, i love that kind of mundane stability, because i know that part of my life is taken care of and i can have fun with reckless abandon with the rest of my time
problem is, i have tons of other unfinished business, things that i should have gotten done and over with before i started this full time work business
i thought i could multitask, despite knowing that i suck at multitasking
i followed my gut, i've been like that for the better part of the last four years now. i've done some seriously drastic things and made crazy, sudden changes in my life so many times that i'm almost a different person every year
and it was fun as heck ^o^ i can make a whole post about how indulging in your gut feeling and making life changing decisions on the fly without worrying about the consequences can both empower you and make life recklessly enjoyable, but i'll leave that for another time, when i'm much more free-er
luckily, that time will come soon
because i'll be quitting my job by the end of the month ^o^
i've gotten tired of my conscience nagging at me to finish all my responsibilities, my unfinished business, so i've decided to make yet another drastic change in my life and reverse to a lower standard of living to finish off what i have to do
i don't know what i'll do after i'm done with those responsibilities, maybe i'll go back to working in the same place again, maybe i'll find a better job
but what i really want to do is to have fun
i can work, i understand the ins and outs of jobs and being a working adult, and its comfortably stable and is absolutely the right thing to do
but i don't want to :( the only reason why i'm forced to is because i freaking need money to survive
so i'm thinking of a way to be able to have fun and get paid to have fun, survive on the thing i love doing the most, without turning it into a job or career, because once it becomes that, the thing i love will become the thing i'd be too lazy to do
just like blogging :O
so yeah ^o^ i gotta sleep~ have been getting very very little sleep nowadays :3 night night kitsune ^^
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